Sentencing Day

Well, Monday March 22, 2010 is sentencing day for the low life who snuffed out the life of my Step-Son. We have to get up in front of the Judge (and everyone else) and make our victims statement. I hate speaking in front of people and I know this is going to get emotional. The only good thing about this day is once the sentence is handed down - he gets cuffed and brought to prison. This creep actually got arrested again in November for Disorderly Conduct (he was drunk then too)! I am sure we won't feel better when its over since we will never get Mark back but at least the creep will be in prison unable to do this to anyone else. I spend alot of time thinking about the fact (per the Prosecutor) that Mark suffered that night in 30 degree water, he struggled to get out of the car (his arm was hanging out the car window).....if the shoe had been on the other foot - Mark would have drown trying to save the other guy.....oh well!

Guilty

On January 22, 2010 we went to court and the scumbag that killed my Stepson finally pleaded guilty to manslaughter and DUI.....now we have to wait until March 22nd for sentencing! The plea bargain scumbag took was 5 years prison and 5 years probation (with the right to argue for less time on sentencing day).....so, he may actually get less prison time but it should be at least 3 years prison. Now, we have to sit down and write letters that we will read at sentencing time letting the judge know what Mark meant to us and how this has impacted our life. It has changed us so much - nothing has been important to us except seeing scumbag pay for what he did!

Happy 4th of July!!!!

July 2, 2009

It has been a long time since I have blogged - just doesn't seem like I am any good at this - reading back it seems all I do is complain!
Anyhoo, things are going well these days. We have been to court a couple of times to make our presence known to the guy who killed Mark! We have spent time talking to the Prosecutor, Victims Advocate, and MADD. According to the Prosecutor, this guy could get 10 years in jail for Manslaughter, DUI, and driving with a suspended license. We know that won't bring Mark back but it will give us some satisfaction!
My hubby is doing better - he feels well these days. He won't talk about the cancer at all but its his choice and I won't force him.
On a really good note, I purchased Chantix to quit smoking - I have smoked for 43 years (minus the few times I have quit) but this time I really feel ready and I have talked to others who used Chantix and it worked!
I hope everyone has a great (and safe) Holiday Weekend! Happy 4th of July!

Blogging

I had thought when I started this blog that it would be a good thing for me so I could get though the death of my Mom. Since then I had to deal with my husband getting Cancer last November then having him tell me he would not do Chemo. Then in March my husband's son Mark was killed in a car accident. It seems life just won't get better......Mark's death may not have been an accident (he wasn't driving).....my husband has been so obsessed with finding out what has happened that he really isn't taking care of himself. He had a colonoscopy a few weeks ago and the results came in and again its cancer......

I am feeling so darn useless and I feel so tired. I just don't know how much more I can take. For the past week I have had headaches all the time and I just feel like crap. I know I can't do anything about what is going on but I am pretending to be strong and I just don't know how long I can hold it together.......I just want life to be normal!