I made it through the day - wasn't sure I would. Today was a day that I cried over everything - my mind just keeps going back to the night my Mom passed. I can't get the image out of my mind - I wish I could have stopped it from happening, I wish I had been a better daughter - I wish for so many things! I wish I could have traded places with her - we used to talk about death and I always said I had to go first because I couldn't handle losing her, she'd say No the parent needs to go first......
I want this all to be a nightmare, please let me wake up and find out Mom is OK. I know things have to get better. I ordered a couple of books on how to deal with the death of your Mother - I hope it helps! I want to be happy that Mom is not in pain and she is with her Mom and Dad but I am selfish (I have always been) I want my Mommy! I wish I could sound happy and glad that I'm alive but I can't. Am I nuts? Maybe, probably!
About Me
- Lynn
- Wallingford, CT, United States
- I have 2 dogs and 1 cat. My dogs names are Chelsea - a Chihuahua, Toby - a Long Haired Chihuahua, Max - a Himalayan. I live in CT with my husband Bob and we would love to move to North Carolina away from the cold, snowy winters of New England. I work for a large Insurance Company in Hartford but I sure wish I could hit the lotto and never have to work again. I have 8 grandchildren (WOW) which includes one set of twin girls and one set of twin boys.....My husband is a Amateur Ham Radio Operator (he builds his own equipment - he's so smart)! So, I guess I do have a full life!
2 comments:
I too wish that I would wake up one day and this terrible nighmare would be over.
I wish that I could be with you right now. I so badly want to take all of your pain away...just like gramma. I am sending you lots of hugs.
The relationship that you and gramma have is nothing that I have ever seen before. You two are truly best friends. I envy that.
She was an absolutely amazing person. I wish I could have known her better. I have heard some wonderful stories though.
I would love to tell you that it gets easier with time, but it doesn't really. It just gets different. Not a day passes that I don't think about Larry. I still cry alot too. They both still had so much to live for.
I have said it before and I will say it again. I am hear for you no matter what, any time, day or night. You helped me through some difficult times in the past, and I want to return the favor. I am so lucky to have you in my life and I am honored to be part of such a great family.
Love,
Heather
Thanks for making me cry!! you are a wonderful daughter (in law) and I appreciate your support!
Love,
Me
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